Friday, May 12, 2016 at 1:21 am

I barely eat my anxiety is through the roof. I get nightmares I'm scared to sleep so I barely sleep. I'm trying to stay together and not break down in front of people, because if I do the world I've built up around me will come crashing down. Everyone irl who I thought were My friends don't talk to me anymore. I'm trying the best I can but it's hard and I want my sisters to have a better life than mine. it's so difficult to hold the weight on my shoulders. I try to do everything I can for them. I don't want them to become failures like me. I can't do anything right no matter how hard I try. But that doesn't matter I don't need to be okay or be perfect, all I want to make everyone else okay. It doesn't matter if I suffer in the process, I've been suffering for years why because I want everyone else to be okay. Why so they don't have to suffer from fear or pain, all I want is smiles and laughter I want to see happiness.